“Saying goodbye and announcing a new chapter” is more like it.
I imagined it would be a breeze to put down my final post, shock on me!… I’m shook! 😀
Right about now I’m feeling very emotional, but this is something I’ve been meaning to do so I’m going to follow through with it.
Before I arrived at the conclusion of quitting on this blog I had a long internal debate with myself, yes, my decision was clearly thought out and I’m 100% happy with it.
I’ll share with you reasons as to why I’ve decided to stop blogging, some are going to double up as factors that led this blog not to turn out as successful as I envisioned in the beginning.
1. I have a lot going on, a lot! So much so, it would be nerve wreaking to keep up with this website. I’m currently a work at home mom, the primary caregiver of my one year old daughter – since I threw the idea of taking her to daycare out the window, I’m in the process of learning a new language, I want to author a book and lastly, I’m looking to establish three businesses which I’m super passionate about, God willing with them I’ll fulfill my dream of becoming financially independent by the time I’m 27.
2. Owning a personal blog makes you so vulnerable and public and I don’t have the desire to share snippets of my life anymore… Or maybe I’m just a coward on this one. I fear reaching a point in my blogging journey where I’m famous and people feel entitled to know all the details of what is going on in my life, and in depth.
3. At some point I totally forgot why I started, I took these words lightly – ALWAYS REMIND YOURSELF WHY YOU STARTED, I can count how many times I went back to read my first post, not too many times. My purpose to educate, entertain, give helpful tips and overall inspire myself and others to lead a satisfying and blissful life got lost. Occasionally I updated the blog this year, but speaking truthfully, every time I put up a new post I felt the blog was plummeting instead of soaring.
4. I’m done faking it. There, I said it. Sorry to break it to you, but blogging is not as glamorous as it appears, I bet this will resonate most with fashion and beauty bloggers. A lot of work goes into creating the illusion of effortlessly “serving looks” or if you like, “slaying.” I’m exhausted of doing my makeup before taking random selfies, dressing up for the gram, sucking in my mummy tummy before taking photos because there exist in the universe unwritten “rules” on how a blogger’s body should look like.
5. I became money hungry. I’ll blame this on being broke and having a baby haha! I started focusing on getting more income, I’d obsessively log into my Google analytics twice or thrice daily to check on my traffic. I blogged with the intention of attracting more followers and bringing in extra cash, the result? My workload increased and my stress level went up.
6. I began comparing myself to other bloggers. I’d look over my shoulder to see what other bloggers were doing, not a smart move, it’s important to stay true to yourself, your personal goals and mission.
7. I’m still struggling with postpartum depression. If you read my previous post, which was downright negative and whiny, you may or may not have figured out that I have issues and plenty to get off my chest. I haven’t tried therapy, but I’ve found that spending time alone, meditating, yoga, generally slowly adopting a healthy lifestyle helps a lot, I have a long way to go though before shouting, “I’M CURED!”
8. I want to write for posterity. More than anything I want to own a blog which I can be genuinely proud of, which my daughter can be proud of and learn from when she’s older. If and when I start blogging again, I’ll want to do it for me, for my soul and for any other person who will happen to stumble upon it and find inspiration from it.
I’m glad I chose to step back and take it all in.
My experience writing on “Yvonne In Bloom” which was “Jua Na Maua” before I re-branded, though bittersweet has definitely been rewarding, therefore I won’t be taking this site down. I’ll leave everything as it is.
I treasure all the memories, comments, love and relationships that this blog has brought me.
My plan, in terms of blogging, is to create a brand new website, because Jesus knows I can’t live without writing or without a creative outlet. I’ve thought up a name for the site already and will be securing social media handles soon. I’m really excited, at the same time terrified about taking my vision in a new direction.
I’m looking forward to evolving and thriving as a blogger in future.
A big thank you to you, my dear readers! I love you! You have been absolutely wonderful, encouraging, kind, supportive… I appreciate all of you who took their time to read,comment, subscribe, email me and follow my social media pages.
Happy holidays and cheers to a new chapter!